Makhosazane Kubheka’s resilience pays off
‘Never let your past determine your future,’ are words that Makhosazane “Khosi” Kubheka, lives by. The resilient 26-year old entrepreneur says these words keep her going. After suffering from depression and nearly committing suicide, she now spends her days speaking about her experiences and journey to raise awareness about mental health and how God has blessed her.
Kubheka grew up in the KwaDabeka, a township situated north-west of Durban. She is the fourth of seven children. She describes her childhood as ‘bad’ claiming that she grew up in an unhealthy, violent home after her father started to heavily consume alcohol which led to him becoming both emotionally and physically abusive towards her mother.
She revealed that keeping a journal, and writing about her thoughts and feelings helped her cope with the situation at home.
“I would write down every feeling I had. I would create stories in my head and write them down. That helped me escape my reality,” said Kubheka.
When she ‘suddenly’ fell pregnant at the age of 20, Kubheka says she was embarrassed and ashamed because she was a God-fearing Christian and knew that people would judge her. However it was her sister’s support that have her the strength to overcome her embarrassment. Sadly, she unexpectedly lost her baby when she was seven months pregnant, which brought her immense pain.
“It was really hard. I remember I had to pray and reason with God to please wake my baby up. What made it very painful was that I had already started experiencing the baby’s kicks,” said Kubheka.
According to Kubheka she began to suffer an immense sadness, and later got into a depressive state. She subsequently suffered from depression after the loss of her child and nearly committed suicide as a result of the pain.
“I was always on my bed. For two months I couldn’t go out. All I did was cry and I eventually made a decision to commit suicide. I overdosed pills but nothing happened. I didn’t even go to the clinic and now that I think about it , it was God’s grace,” said the devoted Kubheka.
She said that it was a church friend who would always come to her house and tell her about God and the church that convinced her that it was time to pick herself up and return to church.
“I went back to church and told my pastor that I wanted to start attending Bible College, my pastor was open to the idea, so I enrolled in the Bible College and I learnt a lot there, including dealing with my past and how God has a plan for me. I just needed to be resilient,” said Kubheka.
Close friend and brother in Christ, Warren Ndlovu, describes Kubheka as a strong, caring, and firm believer.
“I remember when I was visiting her at the hospital , she looked stunning with her messy hair, I remember that day because I was so happy and felt very lucky to have a sister like her because even on her hardest days, she can still have her beautiful smile shining brightly,” explained Ndlovu.
Kubheka recently created her a YouTube and podcast channels, where she discusses mental health, relationships, and God. She hopes to encourage young girls to open up about their relationships and experiences in order to avoid making the same mistakes as the previous generation. Kubheka holds a certificate in film production from MovieTech Film and Television College as well as a Graphic Design certificate from Keyline Digital Design College. She currently works in the media department at His Church, New Germany and owns a graphic design business that provides services such as banner design, brochure design, business card design, invitation card design, and poster design.
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